I-Robot

well my 1st entry of 2008. So Happy New Year to all who reads this :)

but well this isn't just a well wishing message but rather on life, or rather perhaps even a reflection of my life from 2007?

Its been 3 mths + since I started working after graduation. So well the 1st half of the year was slogging through FYP and final semester exams, and now? slogging through work.
Besides this similarity, work is much more stressful than studying!! ohh that famous statement passed down by seniors suddenly makes so much sense "enjoy ur school cos when u leave, you are entering a different world'

So to all my juniors: the same goes for u :P

But then how is all this related to the title of this entry? I-Robot?
well I'm starting to feel like one. Not so much work itself (which is not exactly mundane but can be boring at times) but the routine of getting up in the morning, putting on that ironed shirt, taking that bus (or taxi) to work. Sitting down on my desk, doing my autocad drawings, listen to client's demands blah blah

Its starting to feel more than just a slog but a routine...like a robot programmed to act upon pre-set commands

or is that just really life after sch?? I worked for abt 6 mths in Chevron for my Industrial Attachment, back then, it didn't feel this way that much. But perhaps my IA wasn't as stressful as my current job; when u add deadlines, pressure, other colleagues' problems that u have to solve, and the unfamiliarity of the nature of work, akin to jumping into a deep blue sea and painfully looking over the horizon for a life buoy!

I-Robot, ticking like a Robot, with the only emotion released is frustration and anger. But wait, Robots don't have emotions, at least not yet!

So well A human encased in a Robotic uniform, I think that analogy is far more convincing. So well, what do u do?

1. u deal with it
2. u don't

I think its rather simple but very difficult in doing it!! or at least u wont get it right the 1st time. At least I know, I will perhaps not stay in this industry in future. or perhaps even not so in the next 3-4 mths when my contract ends.

and then the other tough part, how do u break the news to the one who hired you?
think simple? "this is not my cup of tea but I am grateful for giving this opportunity, thanks for letting me learn many things in this period. I wish you future success"

that simple? I think so but saying it is another different matter

So well life has to go on but how robotic will it be? its perhaps up to you to find out. After all, we humans really do have many 'robotic' actions or behaviours.
We are pre-programmed to sleep, to eat, to be angry, sad, happy, frustrated etc etc
just that thing that stands us out, the ability to choose when to be all this.

So if the time for change has come, then I have to seek it, with lots of action.
So 2008 looks like a year of discovery or as clique as it sounds "the search for meaning of life" and how does work and life comes together, the inter-twined relationship, and if there are truly ways to marry them together.

just got to remember 1 thing, the learning attitude has to be there! just got to find how to link it with my heart! my passion! my zest! (if there is one haha...)

still only 25!